Goodbye for now...

A good family Friend has passed away.  Rest in Peace Stephen (Jacko) Jackson.

R.I.P

So many things that I didn't get to say

And you're so far away

But in my heart you will stay

There are no goodbyes

And there is no regrets

I miss you today

And I'm not over it yet

I'll see you soon again my friend

The times that we've shared been so genuine

Know that you had to go

But you'll tell me where you've been

'Cause I'll see you soon again my friend

When I see you I'll ask you, "Where have you been?"

There'll be so much to say

We won't know where to begin

We'll skateboard Watch Football all day

And we'll drink all damn night

'Cause I know we'll meet up in the next life

I'll see you soon again my friend

The times that we've shared been so genuine

Know that you had to go

But you'll tell me where you've been

'Cause I'll see you soon again my friend

I think of sunny skies

And I know that you never wasted your time

I think of your laugh

And I think of your smile, and I cry

Waitin' for the day I'll see that smile on your face again

Holdin' on to the memories

'Cause brotherhood's forever my friend

But I know...

I'll see you soon again my friend

The times that we've shared been so genuine

Know that you had to go

But you'll tell me where you've been

'Cause I'll see you soon again my friend

And I'll see you soon again my friend

The times that we've shared been so genuine

Know that you had to go

But you'll tell me where you've been

'Cause I'll see you soon again my friend

Know that you had to go

But you'll tell me where you've been

'Cause I'll see you soon again my friend

Goodbye for now (video)

I've got 99 problems and this bitch ain't 1!

So as you all know my foot is good and proper done in.  First they said tendinitis and now they are saying gout.  

As they are claiming it is gout I have changed my diet, stopped drinking, started drinking more water, eating more vegetables etc etc!!!

The most annoying thing of all is the foot got bad when I was probably the most active I have been ever since I came to Taiwan, running! Swimming! Playing footy! Cycling!  Mountain climbing!  My weight was also the lowest it had been for a long time, and then this happens.  Now I can only swim because my foot is so messed up.  So I have upped the swimming to at least 4 times a week, but it is so sad having to watch every one else ride around on bicycles, play football, play tennis and running.  It is actually really depressing because I want to do all these again!  Now I cannot and its so shit, it sucks so much!

I need to try and stay positive, but after the length of time it has taken to heal it is getting much harder and harder.  It is affecting everything in my life.  My work, my love life, how I feel from day to day, how angry and pissed off I feel.  It is taking all my energy, and I have to try and keep fighting it because one day I want it to go back to normal, if I let it beat me I will never be able to do the things I love again.  It feels refreshing to totally quit alcohol.  I hope it will help!!  

ITS HARD TO STAY POSITIVE BUT I AM DOING MY BEST!  I WILL BEAT THIS INFLICTION!  If I don't seem myself, or seem occupied or angry or pissed off, you can guarantee I am feeling down about my foot!  

THE DOCTOR WHO MANAGES TO HEAL MY FOOT AND GET ME DOING SPORTS AGAIN WILL BE SHOCKED BECAUSE I AM GONNA GIVE HIM A BIG HUG AND A KISS!!!!  Not that its anything he would want!  I will be so happy though!!!  

Anyway I hope people can help me through this difficult time and understand if I:

A>talk about my foot constantly.  I am thinking of ways to beat the infliction!
B>moan
C>shout at you for no reason
D>say I wish I was playing football, I wish I could go on the bike, I wish I could go for a run
E>look miserable
F>am not my goddamn happy happy self!

NOW YOU BLOODY WELL KNOW WHY.  I AM FIGHTING SOME EVIL INFLICTION OF MY FOOT!!